Waiting for you to call
I’ll be waiting here a while

You put your arm around me
I froze, I couldn’t move
I lost myself for so long
In lies I thought were true

But now the fog is lifting
White noise is almost gone
I hope you’re happy one day
When all is said and done

I’m leaving this feeling
Before it haunts my soul
I’m bleeding this evening
One thing I can’t control
I’m leaving this feeling
Before it ends in tears
Now I’m nowhere to be found
And my heart’s no longer here

They let me fall too deep
I’m hurt, I hit the ground
You were so blind to me
You never made a sound

Risked my heart and lost a piece
No escape, no way out
I had to crash to save myself
And kill all of my doubts

I’m leaving this feeling
Before it haunts my soul
I’m bleeding this evening
One thing I can’t control
I’m leaving this feeling
Before it ends in tears
Now I’m nowhere to be found
And my heart’s no longer here

And I lost sleep over truths unsaid
Been trying so hard, it messed up my head
Your mouth said yes, your arms said no
You shut me down, so I’m letting go

“Surrender”

Our eyes met like swords
At the walls of your heart
You sat there looking bored
Now it’s tearing me apart

Arms folded like a shield
Kept me out in the cold
Just tell me how you feel
‘Cause this is getting old

Now we’re in the trenches
But you’re not on my side
Missing our adventures
I don’t want to say goodbye

So please put down your arms
Long enough to let me in
I promise you no harm
I won’t be the same as him
Please give me a chance
I’ll be your defender
Just this once I’ll ask
So tell me you surrender

Guns raised at the ready
Not even bluffing this time
So still you’re holding steady
Afraid your heart will be mine

We’re both poised for battle
Who will win or lose
Not feeling good at all
‘Cause you get to choose

So please put down your arms
Long enough to let me in
I promise you no harm
I won’t be the same as him
Please give me a chance
I’ll be your defender
Just this once I’ll ask
So tell me you surrender

There’s no white flag
It’s nowhere to be seen
I’m not happy, I’m not sad
I’m somewhere in-between

You never gave me a chance
I’m not your heart mender
Too many times I’ve asked
It’s my turn to surrender

“Wide Open”

I should have known much better
Third party clues dragged me in
I fell down the rabbit hole
Waiting for us to begin

I was tumbling fast
No one slowed me down
Reaching for a helping hand
I’m still reaching now

They all knew my weakness
It was my Achilles heel
I feel so stupid now
For believing it was real

I was wide open like I’ve never been before
And I took your blows as they were keeping score
I was wide open and I didn’t see
All that time you weren’t into me

Falling fast and I hit the sides
Rebounding when I saw your face
Cheeks burned from tears uncried
Will I ever escape this place?

Bruised and bleeding I’m on the ground
I see truth in your eyes again
If I’d cried I would’ve drowned
Now you can’t see me as a friend

I was wide open like I’ve never been before
And I took your blows as they were keeping score
I was wide open and I didn’t see
All that time you weren’t into me

I took their inch and I ran a mile
Swept away by those words untrue
Lost in the magic of your smile
Falling for the idea of you

I was wide open like I’ve never been before
And it became something I could not ignore
I was wide open, but now I’m breaking free
I won’t linger here, some things aren’t meant to be

- Chaz Harris

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